Just a little thought

This is the month of Festivals here at home. The entire country seems to be busy with this \. You know how it is like being in a home where you preparing for a marriage, Christmas, or Eid or in fact any festival. Now imagine the entire country doing the same.
Everyone has the festi fever here but not me. I just cannot get the mood to feel the reason to holiday around. Me staying in a small town, got enough relatives to be with but when it comes to socializing i have no one here to do so. Its feels like a life time i sat with a friend over a drink and shared a joke or two.
I look at myself a a little more than a year back. i was busy with work and also was partying hard. Now all i do is work and physo.
Waiting for the single chance to get out of this place so i can have a more balanced life. bu that opportunity will not come in the near future. Nor can i make an opportunity as have a treatment going on and my family will not loose me out of my site. So i sit here doing nothing but working as they wish me to just looking at the time to leave this place.
Is this why i am not having the festi fever? Don't know but i hope it catches me soon...