Just a little thought

Hey folks ,

I think its been ages since i last wrote something.. must be years.. yes all my other post were ages old. just wanted to share them with people and get their views.

anyways, yesterday is history so don't bother, future is yet to come, just grip your racket right so you can dirvert them quietly back to where it came and today is becoming history as we speak. so who care.. Live lite. Man i can be a little physiological. didnt know i had it in me.

Lets see what i have been doing in the past few months... mmmmmmm
i remember working, and ya working some more... damm nidhi is right. I did become a workaholic. Yes i managed to become something in a very short span of my work life.. hey very few people can achieve early success like this... hehe

But seriously i really need to get the fun back in my life.. See Rohit a few year back was carefree. lived one day at a time, enjoyed as it it was the last to live for. slept satisfied that i had enough fun for the day. but Rohit now lives by the clock.. enjoys every second he saves from doing his work early and using it to find new work. and the end sees a movie and goes to bed satisfied thinking he worked hard enough and gave his 100%.

Now thats a change we dont see over night in a person, but i have proof it did happen over night for me. dont believe ask her.. she keeps reminding me of the old days and when i remember them, i realise i am not the same Rohit. He must have been by other life.. You know re birth and all.

So, what is that i actually thought of writing today.. looks like i forgot, its new... when i sit to write i just the finger have a mind of their own.. it release the inside emotions. not good to keep it within right. not good for help.. but we got to keep in, not good for others.. hehe

damm enough of this $#!^, i need a topic to write something new. you know turn the emotions into something more friction when it comes out so it looks well dressed and gentlemen like.. you get the picture. let see if you can give me a head start..

ciao

I know my spelling are bad...

I needed to break from Home, Needed to go and meet her. It had been long long enough for me lose count of the days since i looked into her eyes. I wanted to do that again . Wanted to take her out, treat her special, see her Smile, Spent time with her. But unfortunately it was not possible for to do so.

Couldn't find time out of work, Had a lot happening. The entire Business Strategy was being changed, so had to do be there, to understand it, Learn it, Make it work. But how could I, my mind was else where. It was always switching to one channel, DREAMING ABOUT HER, but I had no escape from work.

Finally one fine morning my mom came to my rescue. She told Dad, " He needs to go and meet her, when are you sending him." He simply obliged and put me on the next train to see her.

She had no idea i was coming, I hadn't talked top her for a week I guess. Told you the work kept me to buzy. Didn't have enough time for anything.

Than I reached my long awaited destination, and surprised her at her door steps. Would have dropped dead there in front of her, It was a dream come true. I finally met her after two and half months, Damm I missed those pretty eyes.

A tight warm hug (another thing I miss a Lot), and we began our day. Movie, Shopping (I hate to shop but I know she is crazy.. Want to cool her anger or make a smile come on her face - take her shopping .. It does the trick). and a little mischief. Could not tell when the day go over and I had to return back home.

Well ..... what an we say, We must not have all the fun at once .. we should leave some for the future,

So waiting now for the next meeting.... Till then, Dream Dream Dream about this meet and the next to come.....

Every Since I Had Seen You,
Seen You, Dancing There,
I Was Sure Of One Thing
That I Wanted You.

That I Want You
Not To Bed
But It Love
And Make You Mine For Ever.

Something Always Told Me
That It Was Not Possible
That What I Like Most
To Make Impossible, Possible

So Here I Am Today
Having You Next To Me
Getting The Love I Wanted
And Loving You More Than, That Day.

As I wonder of the time I first saw you dancing there among your friends and how we met. The state I was in and ways I may have behaved. Most of which I don’t remember as I was not myself then. All I look back and thank him to introduce me to you and you to me. Yes, that’s how it started, our friendships.
The way I did struggled than to write the few words to ask you out. Luckily I had friends around to help me. Since then the memories are fresh and clear as if they just happened yesterday.
The letters we use to pass across the gates. The way we used to meet. Well, I only met you after a month at the play, after which the friendship day weekend we spent together. Damm “D Club” was good those days, the group really got into trouble later.
Luckily, for my accident I was able to call you. I still remember how he dialed that number and asked for you. I had told him not to do so, I was not feeling like talking but I landed up talking for about an hour with you. Than the carnival we met and the long walk we had taken and the unexpected visit of mine the next day.
Thinking of all this turns me in one of those moods that can only be described by a love poem. Cause by now I was I had fallen in love with you. I can still hear us speak on the phone even though we were neighbors.
The night I proposed and you turned me down, the thought still brings a tear in my eye. The way I ignored you for full two months, the way I simply had vanished. But I know now I did it for our own good. Cause it was only than you had realized how much you cared for me. I could feel it in your voice, in the hug we had went we met in House of Lords.
Every time I asked you if you wanted to say me something, you didn’t say it until than day when I read those words on the screen. I turned to down then to settle scores but later it happened.
The words we spoke over the phone still rings in my ears like music. At last when we met after a gap of two months, we met as a couple for the first time. Those few minutes we spent together, experiencing new things we won’t never to stop. Every time I close my eyes I can still feel you as I had taken a walk with you on cloud number nine.
Never wanting to part, wishing we had a little more time to spend together. But we had to. Ever since I left you that day, I keep counting the days before we will be together again and would feel your love one more time and feel complete again, cause without you I am not. I need you in my life because I want to be loved and because I love you very much

PS: I actually had written this on June 24, 2003, when I was studying in Kathmandu, Nepal. She met me first on July 29, 2002. After which we meet only a couple of time before I proposed her, eventually she turned me down first. Then we met for a couple of minutes after two months, and on June, 2003. It was kind of weird that we never spend much time together except for the three years. But each moment with her was a memory to treasure.

This is the month of Festivals here at home. The entire country seems to be busy with this \. You know how it is like being in a home where you preparing for a marriage, Christmas, or Eid or in fact any festival. Now imagine the entire country doing the same.
Everyone has the festi fever here but not me. I just cannot get the mood to feel the reason to holiday around. Me staying in a small town, got enough relatives to be with but when it comes to socializing i have no one here to do so. Its feels like a life time i sat with a friend over a drink and shared a joke or two.
I look at myself a a little more than a year back. i was busy with work and also was partying hard. Now all i do is work and physo.
Waiting for the single chance to get out of this place so i can have a more balanced life. bu that opportunity will not come in the near future. Nor can i make an opportunity as have a treatment going on and my family will not loose me out of my site. So i sit here doing nothing but working as they wish me to just looking at the time to leave this place.
Is this why i am not having the festi fever? Don't know but i hope it catches me soon...